Whats the big deal anyway?

Well here I sit in a coffee shop missing my cig with my coffee. Been searching the internet for quit smoking help but none are my style so I'll just start my own...I need a quit smoking site for the evil smoker. So here goes. What to do with my fingers? Maybe I should just eat them. Zombikat needs to crave something else....how about flesh....yum. I just need to eat my flesh safely....use condoms people....having a kid will really make you wanna smoke. My brother has two and is a chain smoker...poor thing and he's younger than me. Im 30 and I've quit smoking and drinking. When I get drunk I do stupid shit that guys love but the women aren't to fond of. Why cant I just be a slutty man.....its so acceptable for men to be sluts no fair!...who are these men being sluts with each other? I think not. So stand up for your right to be sluty women and stop hateing your fellow sisters for getting more than you do. Sorry where is this blog going? Why do cigs have such a hold on people....my so called smoking friends are just hateing. They've given me 2 weeks and Im back with the smoking demon. I say screw them I'll show them....I'll take that bet and make me some money. They act like such babies like you cant be their friend anymore....fine I don't need you for a friend anyways! Im still the same person If you only liked me for my bad habits you were never a friend to start with. And why can't any doctor percribe you an inhailer? such bullshit its like they don't wanna help. Well take your inhailer and shove it I don't need it anyway....I'll just look silly anyways and become dependent on that. Im gonna try to get some free patches or gum from my state quit line. I'll keep you posted. I also have lots of brocures coming in the mail. I'll let you know if any helped. I also signed up for qwitter thru twitter...and got bored have no clue how the hell to talk to people...maybe someone will talk to me. Im kinda tired of networking sites...I have lots of so called friends but no one to really talk to....people are so afraid to just talk to people. Im a journalism major so I love taking to new people. Drop me a line anytime and I will get back with you...be patient thought I don't have internet at home only at coffee shops:( Maybe I can afford internet now since Im not smoking. I can breath clearly and my nasty cough has left. I thought I had broncitis. This is day 5 with out any cigs. I also live with a smoking fend my boyfriends mom in a small duplex god help me not to kill her. She cant even smoke out side for me...fills the house with it I think I smoked a pack this morning opening the bedroom door to get some water! My boyfriend thinks Im just being a baby....but research has shown its easier to quit and stay quit if you stay away from smoke...but that don't matter to him....he just don't understand never been addicted to anything....well he is kinda addicted to me:) poff like a cigy trail I'll be gone if he don't show me some respect. Im tired of negative people in my life..and Im surounded by them help they are sucking me dry and not in a good way unfortunately. Now I need to find a job to save money finish school and get the hell outa the smoke haven. If you have any leads please contact me any job will do...just need to get my foot in the door then they will never let me leave:) Im a hard worker I give 110% Well I'll stop ranting....I'll write more as the days go by.